I am having fits with my current manuscript.
I can see it in my head, down to the villain's sneer.
I thought I knew my heroine. Strong, independent. A little naive. But wanting a baby so bad she would give up almost anything to have a child of her own.
But I'm having trouble with the Big M. You know, Motivation. It turns out that my heroine isn't strong and independent. She's wishy-washy. She's weak. Willing to take abuse.
My CPs hate her.
I'm not sure I don't.
I've always prided myself on my heroines being tough, but willing to take a chance on love.
Where did I go wrong here?
I keep fighting it, until I'm at my wit's end. I keep struggling to tell the story I see, hear, feel. But it got lost somewhere. Do I tear the whole the manuscript apart? Do I keep going on, trying to make my vision fit when it doesn't work with what I've got?
I'm so confused.
I love this story. I've been unable to put it down for months. It's the one that calls me. I have several I could work on, two or three that are probably more commercial. But when I click on the computer, this is the one that I want to go to.
I just don't know what to do.