Last Friday was my last day at the day job. After having a month to emotionally prepare for the inevitable, I was in a good mind-set. I’d been through most of the stages of mourning for the job—and the co-workers—I was losing. Since this was a company merger, many of us were in the same boat. A merger means change for everyone, those leaving as well as those staying on. And I think everyone felt that “ending” keenly.
I couldn’t have scripted a better last day. Fortune was on our side because work ceased at lunch so the operational systems could be converted. That meant nothing for anyone to do but hang out, laugh, reminisce, and just enjoy each other’s company. It felt almost celebratory, like a graduation. And like a graduation, the memories I’ve made over the last eighteen years will continue with me wherever I go.
But I can’t go back. Again, like any matriculation, my path lies forward only. Such is the way of life. As Dory in FINDING NEMO says, I have to “just keep swimming.” With all the rain we’ve been having, the swimming is a definite possibility!
At the same time I was losing my job, I was also replacing my car which I’ve had for as long as I’ve been with that company. Ole Blue has been as much a part of my life as anything. She carried me to and from my job. She traveled to and from my boyfriend’s house. Then my fiance’s house. Then helped move my husband’s things when we combined households. She carried my babies as they grew from infant seats with five-point harnesses, to car seats, to booster seats, to nothing. She was held together by stale French fries, legos, and dog hair.
I tease my husband that he only has until we’ve been together for 18 years, then I’ll donate him to Goodwill and get a younger model. Fortunately, he doesn’t take me seriously.
This has been a month of endings for me. As sad as they are, they represent the new beginnings that I can now embrace. Even though the sun may have set on my former career and my Ole Blue, the sun will rise again for me. I love my new car. And I’m excited at what the future holds for me!
If you could choose your future, what would it be?