This week on our critique list, we were talking about how we’ve had problem with our new WIPs.
I don’t know why the other girls were struggling but for me, it comes down to a couple of issues.
Number 1: I worked on my book, SON OF A HIRED GUN, for almost three years—if you consider idea conception to finished fourth draft. And even though I have an idea for the second book in what I hope to one day be a multi-book series, I wanted to work on something new until I know that I have representation for Bix.
Number 2: Bix’s voice is the closest voice to me that I’ve ever written. And now I have to create two new distinct voices as I have two very different characters sharing the viewpoint.
Number 3: HIRED GUN is now on an R&R submission and I’m kind of on pins and needles. Monday will be four weeks. AGH!
So what happened?
I kept rewriting the first chapter—trying to get the voice and the beginning just right. I started in one place and then backed up to another and then fast-forwarded to the next. And then the pressure kind of made me freeze up so I didn’t go writing for a couple of weeks.
SO, last weekend I wrote myself a note:
You have permission to write a crappy chapter that may end up in the trash.
I put the note in my purse and looked at it throughout the next couple of days--on breaks at work,at red lights, just sitting in the living room.
I completed the first chapter yesterday. It’s not even close to perfect or submittable but it’s a beginning. And a beginning that I can work with. So much so that I’ve started the second chapter.
So, go ahead—give yourself permission to be bad. And see what happens.