Monday, April 1

Happy April Fool's Day!

I tend to forget this is a writers' blog. The other Wranglers have been friends for so long--even though I don't think any of us have ever met--D'Ann, Kristi, have you?--that often when I post, I'm just talking to "the gurls." However, the past eight months or so, I've had horrendous problems with writing, most of which you've read about ad nauseum. And I do thank you so much for listening, patting my back, and empa- and sympathizing. Thank you for the advice, much of which has been helpful and much of which has been funny.

Now is the time, since it's April Fool's Day, that I should say something like, "I quit! I can't finish this book! Ever!" But, no, I'm not going to say that. I may have thought it many times, but I truly believe if you've never thought about quitting, you just haven't written--or suffered--enough.

Instead, I'm going to tell you what I'm doing that is working. For my psyche if not for the manuscript.

As you know, I retired two years ago. (Of course you knew--it's all I talked about for months. Weren't you listening?) I was ready, after over 40 years on the clock, to work without a schedule, to take afternoons off sometimes, to work whatever hours I wanted. I've done that. And I've loved it. But productivity has been...well, unproductive. I promote, I spend way too much time on Facebook, I write blog posts, but something hasn't quite clicked as far as the writing goes.

When I was in Florida--yes, I know, I talked about that a lot, too--I got even less done than before. I began to consider going the "I quit!" route. I whined. I read advice but didn't take it. Read lots of books and loved them and knew quitting wasn't yet an option.

A few weeks ago, I sat down at the computer on Saturday morning, like I always do, and stared resentfully at the manuscript, which had only moved about 50 not-publishable words since Friday morning at the same time. And I thought, I'm old. I'm retired. I don't have to work Saturdays and Sundays.

Just that easily, I went back to a semi-day-job schedule. On the weekends, I read without guilt, sew without guilt, and write blog posts because they're owed or just plain fun. While I'd love to say I'm writing 20 wonderful pages a day, I'm not, but I find I'm looking forward to Monday mornings and that there are always more words at the end of the day than there were at the beginning.

I'm a routine, linear type person--I need a schedule. I don't know what ever made me think I didn't.  Have a great week. Happy writing.

10 comments:

  1. Oh my, Liz, you may have hit on it. I'm so there with you, but sadly, I'm not retired. However, your idea may well work for me too because, as a freelance editor, I work everyday. Maybe that's a mistake. None of my clients work weekends, why do I feel the need to "prove" myself by working 7 days a week? And working at the lake is really quite pointless because my focus sucks when I'm there. I want to be outside playing, not stuck inside staring at a computer screen. This is it--this is how I'm going to keep from getting overwhelmed this year--by not taking on too much (please be prepared to remind me of the "n" word [no!] and by not working weekends. You're a genius! Thank you!

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  2. I'm glad you're finding your way, Liz! I'm a schedule girl - if it's written down or blocked of a calendar the words/writing time flow so much better! This week will be a struggle - have about 10 things on a To Do List (and I hate lists!) and bebe's on Spring Break... I'll tell ya later how it's working out. lol

    PS: nope, never met any of my Wrangler Gurls in person...but I have hopes that one day we'll all go on a brainstorming or writing retreat together...

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  3. Liz, Please continue writing. I love you writing "voice" and look forward to all of your books. I understand the need for structure. Right now I am working on a dissertation and it is so hard. I need someone to make me meet deadlines rather than structuring my own schedule. Keep at it! It sounds like you have found what might work for you.

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  4. You make an interesting point, Liz. I've worked from home for many, many years. As great as it has been, I always have a nagging guilt that I "should be working." Our entire family was off for spring break last week. For once, I admitted that I was off, too. The break has done me good. After I boot the college kid out this evening, I am looking forward to work time.

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  5. Liz,

    A list, do this, do that, written on a to-do pad and kept on my desk helps me. And don't forget, you are writing - blogs, etc. But, there is no question, routine helps. You might want to start a different book. The book I started wouldn't go anyplace. Staring at the computer didn't help, nor did my list. I started another book. That worked for me.

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  6. @Nan--you absolutely need some time off! As to working at the lake, why don't some of us have a work day there this summer. Brainstorm, write, eat lunch out, go to the winery...sounds good, huh? :-)

    @Carolyn--I can't quit. Don't even want to most of the time. I think dissertations are meant to be hard, so good, good luck with yours!

    @Cathy--I can't imagine the discipline of working from home when the rest of life is so busy, and kudos to you for being able to do it! I love it now, but would have failed at it when I was younger.

    @Allison--Sometimes you HAVE to start a new story, don't you? I know blog-writing is writing, but it's also fun and undisciplined (other than having to show up), so I never consider it work.

    Thank you all for stopping by!

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  7. I think it's good to give yourself the weekend off---gives your brain some percolating time.

    I've had trouble focusing on my writing schedule the last couple of weeks because my day-job schedule has been in total flux. When my day-job is steady every week, it's a lot easier to plan my writing times.

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  8. Nope, Liz, never met any of you gals. Want to, though!
    I'm a dealine girl. If I have one, I work. If I don't, I mess around.
    Good for you, working! Looking forward to seeing it!

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  9. @Hi, Margie. I don't see how you do it with your schedule, but you sure do it well. :-)

    @D I agree--deadlines help, don't they?

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  10. I never stick to a schedule. I'm totally undiciplined. I work a fourty hour week, and most I'd the time, when I get home from work, I just want to veg. Especially when my job takes me far from home. Spending two hours in rush hour traffic just sucks the creativity right out of me.

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