Thursday, June 19

Begin Again

I've been spending a lot of time in my head lately. I think that happens when you're going through a major life adjustment. I have only 14 working days left at my day/night job in retail management. 14 days!

It's kind of amazing in a way. And scary as hell in another way.

Sometimes I feel like I'm in a Meg Ryan movie.

In You've Got Mail, Jean Stapleton's Birdie tells Kathleen,

"...You are daring to imagine that you could have a different life. Oh, I know it doesn’t feel like that. You feel like a big fat failure. But you’re not. You’re marching into the unknown, armed with … nothing.”

Well, I don't know that I'm armed with nothing--I'm getting a good severance, unemployment right off the bat, and I'm going to finish the 8th version of Bix, send it back to the interested agent, and begin my CampNaNo novel.

But I do feel a bit like I'm marching into the great unknown. And I'm kind of excited about it. I'm excited about enjoying the summer. I'm excited about writing every day. I'm excited about weeding my garden and mowing my lawn. 

This is the other quote I've been thinking about lately. Although it's not that I want to spend the rest of my life with someone--already decided that about 30 years ago--but I have decided what I don't want to spend the rest of my life doing--and I can't wait for my newest adventure to begin. 

4 comments:

  1. Adventures are great things, even if we didn't choose their direction at the beginning. Go, Margie!

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    1. Thanks, Liz! It's been a long time since I've felt like I was on an adventure, so I'm excited to see where this road goes.

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  2. It's going to be fantastic! The hardest part for me was not seeing my friends all the time, but those who want to be in my life are, and those who didn't aren't. I wish you lotsa joy! And get that book sold!

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  3. Thanks, D! I can see how the social bit would be harder to maintain once you left work. Most of the friends I've made through work are scattered around the city anyway. I'm in my third store in less than a year right now. So, I'll just have to 'make' time to see the people I want to see. Lately, my social life has revolved around my sisters and daughters. And they aren't going anywhere :)

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