We are in my season of discontent. Even when bad things don't happen or life doesn't throw unexpected curves, I don't like this time of year. I can find things to like, of course. Sunrises and sunsets are spectacular right now. We had a glorious week of springtime in February. Today (Sunday) is my daughter-in-law Laura's birthday and she is such a gift in our lives. I gave up anger for Lent and I have to say, five days in, that it's working pretty well. Not that anger doesn't rear its ugly head, but unless it has a constructive purpose--which it usually does not--I'm not giving it any heartroom. I count my blessings every day. Every single day. I should add that this takes some time because I have a lot of them. You probably do, too. Go ahead and count--I'll wait. I stalk happiness and most of the time, it gives in and stays with me. Most of the time.
But sometimes. Some-damn-times...
So here I go, on this day that I'm feeling that discontent I mentioned up there. That I'm on the lonely side. Feeling unappreciated and unloved and...anybody got any boots for me to wear as I walk through this poor-me puddle? Here I go with some of my blessings. Share yours, too, in the comments--I'm so glad you have them!
- Family. I have the best one ever.
- Long marriage to my best friend. As anyone who's married knows, it's a double-edged sword--the idea's to love the one you're with and dance with the one that brought you. (I'm pretty sure I just wrote a song there--or plagiarized one. Maybe a couple of them.) If it gets really hard or you think you can't do it but you really want to, just start over. I think most of us do that a lot.
- Having to do with the aforementioned marriage, we say "I love you" every day. And mean it. Even on those days when we have to start over.
- I get to write books. I'll say that again. I get to write books! And sometimes people read them!
- Most of the time, I feel good
- I have friends--hello, Wranglers! Some of them I've had since childhood, some from later on, and I'm grateful for all of them.
- In retirement from a full-time job I liked, I got a part-time job I like. Just because.
- And so forth...
I still don't like this time of year. How I feel today is still iffy, although I just talked to a one of the kids and that makes every day better. But even if you're there with me in the poor-me pool of discontent, you can find happy. You just have to keep looking. Or stalking. It's out there. Waiting.
Now that I've wallowed--thanks for listening--I need to go write. Did I mention that I get to write books?
Have a great week.